I'm reading the heart of Christianity by Marcus J Borg. I remember being entirely confused a few months back when I began to read it, since I just read quite a few books by Rob Bell. I had to put it down until I felt like my faith wasnt being tested and challenged, given that there was very little faith in me. The fact of the matter is, as believers we need to be challenged. We need this in order to answer questions. Why do we believe? Because we have faith. But is that enough? Be aware that believe is the same as belove. We need to belove our creator. I can't answer all the hard questions, but I can tell you that the holy bible is sacred, and was inspired by our creator. It is also worth mentioning that this holy book is both historical and metaphorical. Each story is connected to one another, and each story one of us can find a lesson or a situation where we can identify ourselves. Let's forget about pointing the fingers for what is sin, and let's wonder who He really is, and why we are here...

It's amazing how you can recognize someone, just by their writing. 

It's just like the sound of their voice...

I didn't expect to see you again.

It had been years where your eyes looked straight into mine, with rage you said goodbye. Goodbye forever.

Several months of heartache followed.

Years of shame followed.

I missed you. All of you. For a long time. A knot in my throat formed when I heard you screamed my name across the street.

There you were... with a smile on your face and a ring on your finger. My heart felt similarly to the day I began to move on. It didn't quite sink in my stomach as I know it would have, had I seen you a year after we went on our own ways.

That's the thing about time. It's incredibly healing. Not to mention God, and his never ending love. With you, I lost my dignity, and a beautiful piece of art that I had just painted, but I gained my freedom and I can spend my life living these regrets, but I chose not to. Thanks to that particular moment.

As a symbol of letting go, I skipped rocks in the lake and so it was... our past and present completely turpentine with the power of forgiveness. I wish you the best.

Forgive to be forgiven.

Nice to meet you again, Jesus.

Over a decade of darkness, just two years ago He saw my desperate ill soul.

I tried to find His love in different ways, different beliefs, but He placed things in my dreams and brought very special people in my life that showed me back to the right path. A better path that I knew before I was lost.

I believe in Jesus, not because He died for me in the cross, but because of who He was, is and forever will be. I believe He was an extraordinary human being, and the son of God. Nobody could ever measure up to be like Him, and it is not about striving to be perfect like Him, but to understand things and be aware of our surroundings like He was, to learn how to love. Learn how to Love our God. Can you imagine the world if everyone just truly loved each other?

Every entry in this blog has a meaning. Everything is true, but none of them are as true to me as Jesus. He lives within me, and if you truly knew His love, and felt His presence, you will never be the same again.

Don't forget you have a soul. The body gets old, and dies but the true you lives...